firestarter

ok. this is my last post on the janet thing.

on one side there are the people who are against it, they use cries of religion, decency and we've got the save the chilldreenn to justify their position. on the other side, they say it's just a breast, just nudity, no big deal.

but nobody asks if it's right or not for an act of sexual violence to be acted out to shock, titillate and entertain the audience. {in the context of a superbowl halftime entertainment show it can't be claimed for anything more}

and yes, it was portrayed as such. because if she planned it herself, why didn't she do it herself or at the very least portray some other emotion after the fact instead of feigning humiliation? it was made to look like an act of violence for our enjoyment. period.

america as a whole is so hung up on sexual matters we miss the bigger issues. ten years from now will someone pretend to perform a rape on an award show and afterward will the argument be focused solely on the sex aspects?

Though on second thought after watching the video itself (as opposed to just viewing pictures) I change my mind, I didn't like how it was portrayed. I believe it was staged but still if she did it herself, it would have been okay. I didn't like that it showed him just grabbing it, with her pretending to look victimized. It sends the wrong message. And yes, I do believe the media is influential (especially since most parents don't assume a parental position).

It reminds me of the stuff Jay said he watched and of the time when he was bragging at the college that he bought his younger brother binoculars so he could charge his friends more money than he did the previous year at camp to spy on naked preteen girls even though we all are older and should know better. And out of the 12 or so people there, nobody said anything. The only one who 'did' anything was Steve but he just asked his mother what camp his sister was in (his mother gave me a ride home), and when finding out it wasn't the same camp, promptly dropped the subject.

Nudity, sex, almost everything's fine as long as the woman (and the man as well) have free will. HOWEVER Women are not property, we're not your own private peep show, we're not objects that you can do whatever the fuck you want to with. It's sick that in 2004 some people still view us as such. [shameless puts it a lot better than i ever could (though I doubt she was talking about the same)]

God, I sound like such a conservative. But no I don't believe everyone who watches stuff like that {fyi I'm not really talking about the Janet thing anymore} is going to do the same. In fact, things like this probably wouldn't be a problem at all if people would just think and anaylyze instead of just accepting. And no, I don't believe such things should be banned. I'm not really sure what should be done.

The questions future generations will be asking...

Where were you when:

Neil Armstrong walked on the moon?

The Soviet Union dissolved?

The shuttle Columbia exploded?

The WTC collapsed?

Janet Jackson's breast was exposed on tv?



I mean seriously. Why are people acting like they've never seen a breast before in their lives? There's an FCC probe investing. Justin claims it was due to her clothes malfunctioning. News reports are letting us know that President Bush slept through it. Aren't there better things to report on?

Though I did read an interesting email posted about the white/black demographics of it, comparing the Justin-Janet incident to when a white man, aka Adrien Brody felt "comfortable and entitled" to kiss Halle Berry (who was married at the time) at the Oscars. The piece asked if it was Denzel Washington kissing a married Nicole Kidman or Nelly ripping off Shania Twain's clothing, what would have been America's response?

stolen from faerie

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x;yesterday attempted to led victoria to annapolis mall only to find out i have no idea how to get there, despite going there often and thinking that i did.

x;today misplaced my purse and keys. spent hours looking for it and had rob drive me up to his house to find to check, only to have him find it at my house after we came back, first place he looked.

x;tonight missed dinner by waiting till the last minute even though by the time i arrived back at the college, i had hours to make it.

i feel so out of it. i have five classes tomorrow. hopefully things will improve by then.

friday night, victoria, some of her friends who i hadn't met before and myself went to a belly-dancing restaurant. even though the dancer had been learning belly for three years, victoria was much better after just four months. it was pretty cool except for these little kids that were following the dancer everywhere and putting dollar bills in her pants. the image of her leaning back on a guy with a four year old with his/her(?) smiling face in her crotch is an image i unfortunately won't forget soon.

saturday, rob and i went to the japanese market and bought sushi ingredients. everyone was very helpful there. afterward we headed to annapolis mall where they were giving out free three month memberships to bailey's. rob has a lifetime membership so it might be fun. then we went home and made sushi. it tasted good although we had problems making the shape.

today, packing and getting ready to go back.

last night went to bed only to be unable to fall asleep at all. this has been happening more and more. not good at all.

in case you missed it. i'm looking for book recommendations. as you can see i really need something to pass the time at night.

for some strange reason i can't stop thinking about how much fun it would be to participate in a rocky horror picture show production. my old college used to put the show on twice a year but since their last show was in fall 2001, i'm afraid it's stopped, perhaps permanently. i knew several people who were involved in their production but they've since moved away/transfered/etc. oh well. i guess all good things must come to an end.

if anyone would recommend a book or two or a few, i would be grateful. anything you consider brilliant.

( survey )

my mom got me a year supply of chocolates, jelly beans and other candies. rob bought me sushi plates and a do it yourself sushi maker. most of my relatives sent money (i'm told i'm a difficult person to shop for) and most of my friends gave me hair supplies and the like (i think they might be trying to tell me something)

as much as say something like a sparkly notebook is pretty and nice to have, it is still a novelty item and one that will be used as quickly as a regular old plain cheap one. so instead of stuff i don't need or fancier versions of things i do, i'm pretty happy with the things i received since they are practical and will be much appreciated and used.

i did get some fun things though. the tenants gave me chocolates they made of naked women; in the breasts were rum and cherries. and what do you make of the fact that your grandmother gives you lacy see-through bras?

rob's taking me shopping early tomorrow morning. even though i haven't slept since tuesday. it does feel good not being broke anymore (from the cash gifts) even if i have nothing i can think of wanting to buy.

This sounds a lot like how I feel each winter. Of course I could be reading too much into what might just be winter blues. I am going to take the hour walk advice though and see how that goes.

Maybe depressed wasn't the right word. It's more like dreading, halted, tedious.

If you know me, you know that I'm usually in and out of sickness for the whole winter. But not this time. Since changing my diet, the worst is that I cough when cold air enters my lungs. Physically, I feel like I could run a marathon, but my mind is in another place, it's not connecting.

I saw Victoria today after I don't know how long. Her hair is short and curly, and I can't remember if that's new or if she had it that way. She gave me my birthday present, a bath set. She doesn't want a Christmas present, but I'm not out of the clear yet since her birthday is a few days after. We went shopping but neither of us really bought anything. It was fun though and she found a belly dancing tape. I went christmas shopping with my mother earlier but bought nothing then either.

I also talked to Emily online after an equally long time. She's into astrology now or has been since I think we talked about it on our long journey to Georgia. Cause of that, I checked my astrology info. I'm going to be having a few planets hit by Neptune soon. For the astrology illiterate, that means it's great for the imagination and creativity, but the downside is your sense of reality becomes completely skewered. Oh well. Sometimes you have to sit back and just stare at the pretty colors.

I have no idea why I'm getting another journal. I accidentally just wrote journey instead of journal, but my life isn't a journey, it's more like a dead end. School, school, school; it's been. But that's going to end soon. And then what? I don't know. I suppose that's why I've been feeling so depressed lately.

Rob and I visited his uncle today in the hospital. He might lose his leg because of a gangrene infection. He said he has everything he could ever need...except his health. I really need to get a better prospective on things. I suppose when you get too caught up in the big picture, you miss out on the little things. A lady at the college after seeing Rob pulling my arm, "if i run, you'll have to too," said we made her day, but I can't remember when I've felt the same.

Anyway, I'm I've been back in town. So. Yeah.